Here am I
It was a very simple act, taking Buddy (my dog) outside to do his thing, and right there in my driveway I was overtaken by his presence, the cold was gone, the wind although visible, was still where I stood. Time stopped, and he said “here am I”.
The picture attached is horrible, but let me explain. No one is home and the driveway and yard are one under a blanket of fresh snow. It’s pitch black, cold, and the wind is howling. As I stand there waiting for Buddy to finish things up, the light comes on across the street at my neighbors. The fresh snow blankets the yard, and within an inch from the top of the resting snow, the wind is blowing the loose snow along the rolling mounds, giving the appearance of a river flowing along a rock strewn stream bed.
“If anyone is thirsty, let him come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him” John 7:38
“here am I”
I stood there still, just gazing at the majesty he laid before me.
“The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail” Isaiah 58:11
I am reminded of where I was, when he took me. Not physically, but where I was in my life, my journey. Surrounded by darkness, by misery, and emotional pain. Like in this storm, that he has just calmed, for me.
Sure I was a believer, I went to church, every week, so why was I in this place? Why me?
“Yet on the day of your fasting, you do as you please
and exploit all your workers.
Your fasting ends in quarreling and strife,
and in striking each other with wicked fists.
You cannot fast as you do today
and expect your voice to be heard on high.
Is this the kind of fast I have chosen,
only a day for people to humble themselves?
Is it only for bowing one’s head like a reed
and for lying in sackcloth and ashes?
Is that what you call a fast,
a day acceptable to the Lord?” Isaiah 58:3-5
One hour, each Sunday…that was my fast. God got an hour, and I got the other 167 each week. Even that hour was partly mine, to plan the rest of my day, or remember my Saturday. THAT is what I called a day acceptable to the Lord.
Yes It was a dark time, dark like it was tonight on my driveway. That is, until the Lord turned on the light.
“Then your light will break forth like the dawn,
and your healing will quickly appear;
then your righteousness will go before you,
and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard.
Then you will call, and the Lord will answer;
you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I.” Isaiah 58:8-9
“If you do away with the yoke of oppression,
with the pointing finger and malicious talk,
and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry
and satisfy the needs of the oppressed,
then your light will rise in the darkness,
and your night will become like the noonday.
The Lord will guide you always;
he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land
and will strengthen your frame.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
like a spring whose waters never fail.
Your people will rebuild the ancient ruins
and will raise up the age-old foundations;
you will be called Repairer of Broken Walls,
Restorer of Streets with Dwellings.
“If you keep your feet from breaking the Sabbath
and from doing as you please on my holy day,
if you call the Sabbath a delight
and the Lord’s holy day honorable,
and if you honor it by not going your own way
and not doing as you please or speaking idle words,
then you will find your joy in the Lord,
and I will cause you to ride in triumph on the heights of the land
and to feast on the inheritance of your father Jacob.”
For the mouth of the Lord has spoken.” Isaiah 58:9-14
In my darkness years ago, God took me. He took me from that dark place, and brought me into the light of His Kingdom. These were his words;
“Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen:
to loose the chains of injustice
and untie the cords of the yoke,
to set the oppressed free
and break every yoke?
Is it not to share your food with the hungry
and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter—
when you see the naked, to clothe them,
and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?” Isaiah 58:6-7
He said “Here am I”
He said “Follow Me”
and tonight, as I stood lost in the “stream of living water” he blessed me with such a vision of his Glory.
Thank you Lord